Alone. That's how she felt at this moment in time. There was no one she could talk to. How could she talk to someone when she couldn't even describe how she was feeling? How could she talk to someone when she knew that they would not understand? She didn't even fully understand.
Life could be so strange. The one minute you're over the moon happy and the next so sad and over what exactly? There was no reason at all. Maybe there is a reason, but she just couldn't find it, couldn't grasp it. What could the reason possibly be, what sort of reason could make you feel so sad and so alone?
This feeling makes her feel so uninspired. It makes her question herself and the whole point to life. She doesn't want to do anything. She doesn't want to do anything that she loves doing and she doesn't want to do the things she knows she should be doing. What's the point? When you're feeling this way, what is the point to anything?
But then she thinks starts thinking about the future, but still the sadness is overwhelming. She wants to cry. There is no reason to cry, nothing that happened that upset her, but she just wants to cry. To let out all the emotion inside, but it doesn't come. She's too sad to cry. What would be the point anyway, the feeling will still be there afterward.
How do you get past something like this? Something so strong, it takes hold of every inch of you. Its grip is tormenting, relentless and unforgiving. How do you get past a feeling that makes you believe that nothing is worth it? Thinking doesn't help, it just makes things worse. Trying to distract herself doesn't help either because she doesn't want to do anything.
Maybe if she just hangs in there a little longer it will pass. Maybe if she tries to be the strongest she has ever been it'll go away. Maybe things will be alright in the end. Maybe things will go back to normal and she'll start feeling normal again.
When will it be back though?